Working from home for the past month with Evan around was difficult. I thought it was a good way to make the transition a bit easier. After all, I knew that I would be able to concentrate on work while at work, then on Evan while at home (instead of doing a crappy job of both). But, I think whatever the circumstances are, it's always hard to give your child over to someone else.
I don't feel guilty, and I know I'm not a bad mother. But, I do feel bad that Evan will be the youngest at the daycare by far. Most children around here start daycare at about 1 year, and Evan is only 8.5 months. I kind of feel like we're being robbed of that time together, and it doesn't seem fair.
It just hurts. I know it will get better, and it's good for both of us, blah, blah, blah. I just want to wallow in my heartache for a bit.
This all being said, it seems like Evan is dealing with it all very well. Apparently, he's a lot better dealing with change than his mommy.